Bút if I could go back, I’d run.

 Bút if I could go back, I’d run.

Was the veracity higher in degree

Never would you enter this proximity.

You were treacherous at first,

Brazen by the time the truth unrolled.

To believe that I was loved left me in a lurch,

Now disgusted with the credence I lended myself;

I’m waiting for the storm to calm,

For what’s done is done,

But if I could go back, I’d run.

I want to live as vividly as you do in my head

Your image of me is how i intend to be.

I’m a little lost these days in trying to find the part of me you found to be amusing;

In looking for myself in the deepest troughs and the highest crests, i lost myself.

But i want you to find me where I’m lost.

Look for me in the mayhem,

I disregard any other presence except yours.

Find me in my deepest dejection,

I reject to be elsewhere except in your arms.

Enthral me like the first time you do.

We are a moiety of beauty in the broken.

When each alone there is no pleasure and there is no us;

For in your absence I find myself unbearable

Because if there’s no you, there is no me.

I want to live as vividly as you do in my head

The version of you that I get to fall for 

Reiterated that I never knew what falling in love has to feel like

Just as much as you reside in this barren mind

I hope to be forever beautiful to your cognition

so lovingly, effortlessly and undoubtedly all for my cause

 

Tried giving up on the whole line of Y-Chromosomal Adam.

Almost allowed myself the denial of my fondest  dreams,

For men had never been nothing but a mere torment to the soul;

I don't know what i did to deserve such exploit whenever i loved.

And today I know not what i did to deserve you either.

There are a lot of things that i do not know

Why RNA primers are favored over DNA primers naturally?

Why people choose hatred over kindness?

Why the grand designer chose division for cells to multiply? and

Why you came into my life ever so suddenly and

Change the course of my life in a way I had never comprehended.

 so lovingly, effortlessly and undoubtedly

all for my cause.

You are making me feel like I’m loved.

♥️

Dainty sparks

 How sadly true it is to realise how happy memories 

never build a page on my notepads

Today, I would like to make some changes and add dainty sparks to the dingy notes.

I realise that love made me felt three things-

To be loved and never being able to return the same

To love and never being given the same

To be loved and happily giving the same

You made me feel the latter and even-though  I am afraid of being attached to temporary fondness, you make me unafraid of going about with it boastfully even so

How easily you made me experience all the sweet things i want to taste within my finite numbered days; you did it even more so casually and in the spur of the moment.

I’m thankful you do exist and I am still honestly adhering to what I said when i told you that you are like gold to me; demanding some refinement of course as we all are but that doesn’t make you any less revered.

Here’s to us.

The first thing you give up

I’m the first thing you give up on when the going gets tough. 

 I resisted prating to you for hours on end and then my fingers slipped;

Ì reached out to you but it only brings out an endless palaver of rage.

You didn’t love me, you never did.

I thought you did and that was why i knuckle under your mastery.

But I miss you though, unheedingly. 

Regardless of your ever absent requite.

PATHIAN HNEN ATANGIN ENG NGE KAN BEISEI ANG?

 

Pathian kan rina hian Engkim a ti thei tih kan hria a kan ring bawk a; Kan tana tha tur, tuarna kan pumpelhna tur, kan hlimna tur, kan thatna tur, kan damna turin thil a ti thei tih pawh kan hria. Mahse a ti duh a ni tih hi kan ring ngam lo thin. “Ama thu thu a lawm”, tiin engpawh thleng se inpeih turin rilru kan inbuatsaih thin. Ni e, a thu thu a ni tak meuh mai, chuvang tak chuan a ni kum tam tak kal taah khan Isuan kraws-ah min tuarsak ni, vawiina i damna turin, naktuka i damna turin. Hetiang ni lova hrilhtu che chu rinna ni lovin, rinhlelhna zawk a ni.

Mahse maw, Kristian nih hi hri laka him na damdawi ni se, miin dam a duh vangin Pathian a zui ang; hausakna leh hmuingil ngei ngei na a ni ti se, miin hausak a duh avangin Pathian a zui ang. Thilpek petu aiin a thilpek an thlang zawk ngei ang. Harsatna tawk miah lo ila, kan Rinna hian ṭhang lian tur a nawrtu a nei dawn lo a ni. Lal DAVIDa pawh hriak thih a nih hnu khan harsatna tam tak a paltlang kha.

LalSaul-an thah tum a a veh lai khan, thurawn petuten hlauh tur an hrilh laiin a chhanchhuak theitu Pathian lam a en tlat kha. Khawvelin hlauh tur a hrilh lai che in, a aia lian zawk Pathian en tlat rawh. A ni chuan kan vela thil thlengte hi kan thatna turin a her rem zel thin.

Keipawh hi COVID-19 ka vei ve ang tih ngaihna ka hre lo; ka chhungkhat laina ten ZMCa ka awm tur min thlah dan kha, Davidan beih a tawh laia a thurawn dawn nen khan ka tehkhin a, mahse JEHOVAH- RAPHA tidamtu Pathian ka en zawk a. COVID-19 khan chakna a chan tak loh kha. 

Tunah chuan mithiamte’n anmahni siam ngei Vaccine latute ai chuan, a vei tawhte’n COVID hrik thar an do theihna a chak zawk tih an hmuchhuak tawh. Tichuan, tunah chuan natna do theihna( immunity) chak tak ka lo neih phah ta a ni.

Pathian hian min tidam tawh a, thlarauva kan chan tawh hi, tisa a a lanchhuah hun nghah chhunga nghet taka rinna nen a lo dingte hian hnehna ni chu an hmu thin. Harsatna kan tawh pawh kan tana tha turin a her rem lehzel thin. Pathian lak atang hian eng nge i lo beisei thin? I thatna tur a duh takzet tih i inhrilh thin em? I hlim a, i dam a, i hmuingil a duh tih i inhrilh thin em? Pathian tha, i hlimna leh i damna duhtu Pathian i nei tih inhria la, Amah atangin thiltha beisei la, Tihdamna thlarauva i chan tawh chu tisa a a lanchhuah theihna turin rinna in lo puang zel la, a tithlawn lovang che.