With all of your limits

I want you so much

But I know that it is not going to last

Every time I look at you

I need to get myself ready for a goodbye 

Knowing that I’m holding on to something so delicate

I’m still giving you myself piece by piece

Never knowing when you’ll call it off

I still choose to accept your forever with all of it’s limits

Now, you don’t even ask me to give you my hand

You’re holding it as if it was always yours

And I’m foolishly letting you take me over

Like I’m never finding someone better

Tonight, I’m sure that I will want to go back to this day

Wishing that I didn’t give you the power to kill me softly

But tonight, I still choose you over a million what ifs

Because I want you with all of your limits.

Several times over

I wish that you would keep me safe in your heart; 

I will do the same for you, several times over.

Propositions

 I used to keep my secrets to Myself my whole life and 

in my latter teenage life i learnt to share. 

Sharing was okay and sharing was healing me at a certain point 

and it felt good until they were used against me. 

The, in my early- twenties I hold it in once again. 

I have no more courage to share my deepest feelings, for I'm aware that I will be judged no matter what. 

Why are people so insensitive?

Being a good listener, you can save someone else from the hands of cold thoughts but now,

 the world is cruel and we won't let people around us heal because  we are so judgmental. 

I am becoming more irresponsible 

I put the blame on everyone else around me

Hardly i ever reflect on myself

But this is what i turn out to be

At least I hope my propositions might awake a soul

I'm scared of...

 I'm scared of being loved

Because I'm scared of never having the chance to feel it again. 

I'm scared of being happy 

Because I'm scared  of being reminded of how good it felt and never feel it again.

I'm scared of having you

Because I'm scared of being  left alone 

Or having everything else except you. 

Its not a big deal

It's not a big deal-

If you are messing up a bit,

Struggling to find out what comforts you and what brings you peace;

It's not a big deal-

Failing to move forward,

Getting stuck where you are and watching people transcending.

Your day will come-

As long as your heart pulsates 

There will come a day for you to say 

That all those things were not a big deal.