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So, you told me that there is nothing left for me and I am slowly coming to figure it out.
All the things you said to me about how there is no memory of us saying that that we had not created any of such and mocked at the late night calls that made me fall in love, saying that it was lame and just a fling.
Can't you see that those meant more to me than it did to you?
I am a one stupid girl who enjoys late night calls, a stupid girl who chose to hurt her own feelings for a guy who mocks at her honesty, a stupid girl who doesn't know how to stop loving, a stupid girl who is unloved.
I never knew that I would found you so easily and loose you so easily because keeping you was not so easy.
I found you and then I loose you.
With every bit of my strength trying to persuade him but at the same time trying to let go of my desire of him; I am losing my patience and i am losing control.
Of all the people living within this perimeter and beyond, my heart is attached to his while his is bound with the intention to deny me of my affections for him.
I wish I could tell him about all the things that happened inside my body today. I was feeling the pain inside the bones of my chest, breathing was hard and living inside my body was agonizing.
I know that it is wrong to have
this feeling and i know that it is harder for you than it is for me but i can't help but express all of the feelings that are colliding because of your presence.
Sorry, but i don't want to hold it in
Because it is imploding inside me.
