In kalsan lo zawk mai ang aw!

Tunah hian ka pi ka bulah a muhil a,  lemchan hmuhnawm deuh pakhat hi ka en a, ka ngaihtuahna a ti thui hle...
Ka pi ka han en a,  min kalsan dawn a ni tih ka hria,  hun engzat pawh lo la nei se a tam tawk dawn lo.. Tiang bawk chuan ka hmangaih em em te chan atan ka han ngaihtuah a,  tu pawh hian tu pawh hi kan la in kalsan dawn chu a ni si a...  A va han khawharthlak dawn tak em!

Ka hmangaih ka chhungte, ka thiante leh mi pakhat hmangaihna danglam bik a min hmangaihtu hi ka han ngaihtuah a, kalsan ta ila an nunah ka lo zar buai nasat thin em em te an nih avangin a ruak ve huai tur hian ka hriaa,  ka Khawngaih ve lehchhawng khawp mai...  A chhan chu tu emaw ber hian min kalsan se ka tuar tur zia leh ka lunglen tur sia hi ka ngaihtuah thui ngam lo a ni.

Ka ngaih em em lh ka hmangaih riauva  ka tih khi 😂 a muhil hma lutuk a zanin chu,  dar 8ah pawh khan kan in kaitho kan in kaitho tawh a,  hei dar 12 a lo ri dawn der a,  ka ngai lehpek tawh hle mai...
Ka sawi tawh ang khan,  ka movie en a nupa in kalsante kha an in hmangaihna ka. Hmuh khan ka tem ve mek nen hian in anna tam tak an nei tlatin ka hria a ni..

Kan in duat ve em em a, kan in ngai hle bawk a, hmangaihnain a ti tur nia kan hriat chu kan in tihsak mawlh mawlh a ni,  keini ni ve lo tan chuan a atthlakin a hneawm phian maithei, mahse " Ka hmangaihna ka lantir thiam dan a ni ve miau si a,  min lo hrethiam hram teh u," kan han ti a ni..

Ka zuam thlawt lo a ni,  ka hmangaih, ka duat em em han kalsana, tuktin ka aw hre lova a hun a hmang tur te, ka kuah leh ka duat thlahlel em em an, mi in an dawng bik lai a hmu turte, a hlim loang tih ka hlauh em em a kha, a tap ru keuh keuh turte, ka thawmhnaw hak thin a hmuh changa ka taksa an mitthla tur te,  rawng ka bawl sak apiang a tui emaw, tui lo emaw min han fak sak a,  tui tih hmel taka ei thin tu khan,  ka pek ang thin enkawlna a hmuh tawh loh hunah chuan, a in ngaihtuah ang a, a in Khawngaih tur ka hriatin tiang tur chuan ka phal lo a ni....  In ngai leh in ngai kan han in kalsan tur hi ka ngaihtuah ngam lo a ni..
Ka thian tha ber a ni a,  a tel lo chuan ka tlei lova,  mIdang Buaipui hmanin ka siam lo ve bawk nen, a nun ka ti ruak dawn em a ni...

Tihian khing ka sawi te khi ka chan tur zawk lo ni ta se, anin min han kalsan ta se a tuar thiam lo ber pawl ka nih ka ring a ni... Min kalsan lo zawk mai ta che t raw Thianpa?  Ka hmangaih che...

It feels like my soul is not even living inside my body anymore..

caught a bird in flight.

I know that indulgence into drugs, alcohol or any odlf that sort could bring a bad addiction. "It will hurt my body", that i knew and still im steering clear from those and my body ain't marked by those scars...but now,  i realized what i did not know. 
I didn't know that you could become an addiction,  i didnt know that you could hurt my body. Now,  my body is wounded by the feelings you made me feel. 
I should have been telling myself that you were a poison for me and I should have never let you catch me. 
Temporary plans that you made for us are now permanent attachments for me. I'm going in a wrong direction and i'm a nobody for you. 
It feels like my soul is not even living inside my body anymore . I'm devoid of all the feelings that the heart could ever feel, my mind and my body could no longer coordinate..
What my mind thinks is impractical for my body to prove. What i want is what's hurting me,  i don't suffocate but its hard to breathe, i'm still living, but what for? 

I don’t want to rush falling in love anymore..

Photo credit: RICKY VANLALPEKA

Ka han ngaihtuah let leh chang pawh hian hmangaihnaah ka tlan lut ta mai tih ka in hriat pawh khan awm lo tihna kha ka nei mang meuh lo, a chhan ber chu ka mi hmangaih khan ka hmangaihna neih kha a tum ber kha a ni thin reng a, hun min siam a, hun min pekahte hlah lovin ka tan a inpe thei em em a, eitur min siam a, min ti nui a, pum rawl thum khawpa min ti nui theitu awmchhun kha a la ni reng bawk…

Rang takin hmangaihnaah chuan ka lut a, ka inchhir ngai reng reng lo. A tan ka inhuamin, ka theih apiang kha chu ka tihsak ve thin. Chhungkaw dinhmun te a inang lova, a hman hunah ka hman lova, a hnenah ka awm tam thei lova, mahse remchang kan dap ve ruai thin.

Ani nen a kan in hmangaihna kha tunlai tleirawlte inngaihzawn dan tlangpui nen han khaikhin dawn thin ila chuan, hmanlai kan pi leh pute hunlai kha a ang zawk mah awm e.

Inchhawng chung sang atangin bag ka uaithlak tir a, zanlaiah eitur chutah chuan a han dah a, note a hnutchhiah tel bawka, min hmangaih thu leh tui taka ei tur te leh chhel taka engkim hmachhawn turin min chahna te a ni. Ka han ngaihtuah let hian chungahte chuan lemchan engmah a awm bikin ka hre lo, hmun leh hmunah, in pali panga karcheh lek ni mah ila, inmuh kha a har ve hle thin a, concrete ban leh hunt e kha min dangtu an ni pawh hian ka hre lo, mihring rilru zawk khan min daidang ni ber thin in ka hria.

Inhmuh kha kan thlahlel em em ringawt a, nitin khan inhmu lovin kan awm kha hlauvin, dawr kal pah mai mai a han tei dun te kha kan tum tlat zel thin. Rei lo te chhungin darker te chu a ral a, ni a ral, thla a ral a, kum pawh ral leh mai tur khan ka ngai a mahsela rilru te hi a lo danglam thin a, hun tawn mil zel leh kan chhehvela thil thlengte hian rilru hi a lo thlak ve leh mai thin a. Hmangaihna,kan engkim ni thin a pawh kha, engmah lo maia tham ral mai hmabakin kan inkar chu a chhe ta em em mai a nih tawh hi!

Hmangaihten min han kalsan hi chuan tha a thum a, chaw lem a har em em a, tuisik pawh hian hrawk a ti na thei emaw tih mai turin, thawk pah hian awm te hi a hik chuai chuai mai thin ni ber hian ka hria. Nitin, engtik lai pawhin rilrua awmchhun chu, anin min kalsan tak avanga huatna ai chuan, kan in hmangaih thin laia kan hlim dun zia ngaihtuah kha a ni, amah ngaihtuah lovin ni khat ka ban tlang vedawn tawh a maw ka inih tum pawh hian, “ EHE! Vawiin chu amah ngaihtuah lovin ka awm ve thei mawle” ka han tia, amah bawk chu ka ngaihtuah chhunzawm leh thin.

Midang leh thildang reng reng hi a dinhmun luah pha an awm lova, a aiawh tur zawng pawh hian ka phar buai peih tawh lo, nitinin ka la nat pui reng zawng a nih hi!

Ti hian zanin chu ka ngaihtuah taa, hmangaihnaah hian rang takin zuan luh mai ka duh tawh lo.

Ani ka lo hmangaih mai ni khan in ngaihtuah chianna hun ka nei lova, hmanhmawh takin hmangaihnaah khan ka zunag luta. Mahse ani chuan min han kalsan ta a, rang taka hmangaihna rawn piang a khan, rang takin min kalsan leh ta si lova. Muangchangin nitinin ka taksa nen hian min ei ral mek zawk a, hmangaihnaah hian rang taka tlan luh mai ka duh tawh lo, muangchangin min chhuahsan dawn tih ka hriat tawh avangin.

AGAPE.

Hun a lo kal liam ve zel a, ka nun pawh hian hmasawnna nei miah lova ka ngaih laiin, eng kawng kawng emaw chuan rahbi thar a lo kai ve zel a.
Ka nun a ka thil tawh apiang hi, a tawpah chuan PAthian min hriatchhuahtirtu a ni leh thin.Nun hi ka lo thiam lo hle a lo ni a, ka kal sual zel mai thin.
Mahse hmangaih tawp lova min hmangaihtu hian ka nun hi min lo kaihhruaisak thin a. Min han en a, ka bo pil phal lovin, tlukna atang chuan thawhlehna nunin min kaichhuak leh thin.
Heti em em a min hmangaihtu hi haider reng tum chung hian engtin nge maw ka lo hmuingil theih reng ang le? Tawp lova min hmangaihtu hi chhang let lo thei ka ni lo.

A thisen a min tlantu hian, 
ka leiba min tlaksaktu hian,
man dang phut lovin,
ka rinna hi min pawmsaka,
ka rinna a hnena ka kawltir hi
a hun takah min sengtir dawn a ni. 


Hun tam tak kha nun bawlhhlawh leh Pathian huatzawng tih hmang ka ni.
That tum lo leh hmuhsit ching, pawisak nei lova tal reng thin ka ni.
MAhse, kei hi boralna ata Chhandamna hmutuah min siam ve a ni.


LAlpa, ka mamawh lai che chauhin i hnen ka rawn pan thin a, zakin ka kun leh thin.
MAhse nang bel lo ila, hmelma pa lawmna ti tam tu tur mai ani.
Nang mamawhtu che ka nih hi min hriat nawn tir thin a,pawm mai tur ka lo ni. Mihring hriatna hi a tlem si a, hasatna atang lo chuan i hmel ka hmu thin si lo.
Lawmna min pek hi nang hlat nan che ka hmang thin a,i malsawmna chu nang nghilh nan che ka hmang zawk a, Hmangaihna phu lo ka va ni teh lul em!
Mahse Lalpa, mi a te hnar ngai lo,thil sual ti thin leh i mittlung lo hian,Lalpa ka lo pan leh ngawt mai che a ni. Nun dan min zirtir la, ka nun min kaihhruaisak ang che.

At last, he finally became the first guy…

Yes, it is. At last he became the first person to give her a flower, a ROSE.

Through the months they spent together, one of the gifts she’s been wanting to receive any day was a rose. They had broken up already; their relationship had already withered like leaves shedding in the autumn. They fall off to bring spaces for the new spring.

It was Valentine’s Day and she wanted to spend a few hours with him, so he picked her up and went to his place. Nothing around them have a look that supports their broken relationship because almost everything was the same;in the way he looked at her, in the way he talked, the way he held her and the way she feels when he kissed her. It was all the same, but not in what they talked about, he was saying how much it would hurt when either one of us had a new lover, how it would hurt to see them together even in pictures and she was touched by it, she hid her face being afraid of how terrifying it would be when that day comes, he asked her to look at him and there he was, with a red rose in his hand, “it’s for you” he said, she was blushed because it was her first time to receive a flower of any kind.

The atmosphere was calm and she felt important :D, he called her outside and asked if she wants a pot of flower, “stupid! That’s your mom’s. ”she replied, “or this pot of cactus? Pick one” he continued with a smile in his face. She rejected because she thought that it was impractical to take his mom’s flowers. They went downstairs because she needed to leave, he said “lets have our last kiss”, she thought it was for the day so she gave a light kiss on his lips and he asked “is that it? You really want that to be our last kiss? Come here” he said. He gave her a kiss as though it would last forever, one of the most serene scenes of the day. Then, he gave her a bottle of wine too.

So, he dropped her off with one stop on the road because she wanted to buy him chocolates for being so sweet earlier that day. They reached their destination, he said he would talk to her when he reached home; she gave him a wave of goodbye for that day.

Hours later, she switched on her laptop and went to www.intagram.com as she scrolled through the posts, one of those had  her, right when she read the caption “#giftfrommyvalentine” she loaded the picture because she thought it was going to be the picture of the chocolate she bought in a rush, but it was not. He already had a girlfriend! It was a total surprise, she felt down, her heart was not functioning in the way it should, her heart gets emotional instead of pumping blood. She died a little, but she resumed being alive.

She have to tell people on how much cheating a person does, to this girl and the other, but we “girls” sometimes love too much and risk everything for a guy like him!

But she decided to move on, exactly like she told him a few days ago, she told herself,

“I WOULD RATHER GET MY HEART BROKEN BY SOMEONE ELSE THEN GIVING HIM THE CHANCE TO BREAK IT AGAIN.”